“I’m so sorry, Mrs. Robillard, this just isn’t going to happen for you.” Those regretful words lingered in the air as my doctor left the exam room. My crushed heart lay in a heap on the floor. Alone, I glanced absently around the tiny room, got up and began to gather my things.

 

I somehow navigated myself through the cold, sterile corridors, made my way back to the car and headed for home. How, I don’t know—but sometimes Jesus does the driving! Maybe more than we know.

 

That day was the culmination of many painful days. After ten long years, twelve surgeries (two were life threatening) and eight lost pregnancies, my doctor considered this the end of the road for me … and I did too.

 

When I finally reached the seclusion of our home, I ran to my faithful old friend, my Bible. I held it tightly, desperately needing hope and comfort only He can give. I buried my face in those open pages and spilled my heart wide open. “Now what?” I asked. I pleaded and prayed. Does God want me to let go of it all? How can I bear to give up the greatest desire of my heart?

 

Looking into the deep well of grieving barrenness was too dark and so scary. I felt myself tumbling fast and hard and I knew if I continued, the abyss of grief would swallow me for God only knows how long.

 

Then I remembered the first Scripture the Lord spoke to my heart, many years earlier, about my desire to be a mother.

 

“…for God calls into existence that which does not exist” (Romans 4:17).

 

That’s right! God’s creative power and activity didn’t stop on the seventh day of creating the earth and all it contains.

 

In Revelation, we read about Jesus being worshipped for His creative power. “Worthy are You, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for You created all things, and by Your will they existed and were created” (Revelation 4:11 ESV).

 

Let that sink in.

Jesus . . .

Our Creator.

Our Messiah.

Our Savior.

Our Advocate.

Our Healer.

Our Hope.

. . . still calls into existence things that don’t exist.

 

What have you have been praying and longing for? Is it a child? A desire to be married? Perhaps you’re praying for a broken marriage or some other relationship that needs to be restored.

 

Is it health? Hope? Peace of mind? Or is it simply more faith to trust Him with whatever you are facing today? Then you need Jesus!

 

That day, so many years ago, the Lord created new hope in my heart, through His Word, and that’s what I really needed. He reminded me that He alone can call into existence that which doesn’t appear to exist right now.

 

The Lord heard my prayers and He chose best. At the right time, He called Steven James Robillard into existence! He entered this world on Tuesday, January 29, 1991 at 7:48 pm, Pacific Standard time.

 

That joyful day was the culmination of God’s promise to do a greater work in me than I could see. And today I wouldn’t change a thing for what He gave me through the waiting and loss.