Trying to Be Good
Little by little, he was edging slowly, silently closer to the curb. He had one eye on me and his other eye wistfully glancing at the street. To little Christopher (Keefer, as his sister has named him), the street promised all the freedom, adventure, and fun of big boy life. His glances toward me were not as wistful.
These years of 0–2 are critical. Dangers are all around. Staircases look so inviting, electrical outlets intriguing, swimming pools alluring. The challenge for the grown-ups in their lives is not to become thought of as the spoiler of all things fun—the party pooper who says no a thousand times a day.
Is that what we are? We know we are not, but to a two-year-old, things looks different. Over and over again, we need to humble ourselves, bend low enough, get down at their eye level and try to remember: What was it was like to be so full of curiosity and energy that you’d fight sleep like a wild cat? How about sitting in a car seat with straps wrapping over, under, and around you like a straightjacket? (I’m feeling claustrophobic just thinking about it!) How unfair did it feel to have to share your toys? Or what about sitting still for what seemed an eternity, waiting your turn, or waiting for the grown-ups to finish their endless talking!
The temptation to do their own thing and have their own way in circumstances like these is immense.
Are we at all like that two-year-old? How often this “grown-up” will cast a wistful eye at temptation: some boundary that seems too restrictive, a staircase we inch toward that promises some pleasure out of reach, a secret swimming place of self indulgence that we plunge into, sinking silently to the bottom in waters cool and dark.
Temptations beckon us at every stage of life; don’t think for one moment that you are above succumbing to the subtle ways that our desires morph and change shape as we age. I once read how Gordon MacDonald (a pastor and former president of Intervarsity Christian Fellowship) shared in his book Rebuilding Your Broken World about a time when he was asked about how Satan might get him. He answered:
“All sorts of ways, I suppose; but I know there’s one way he wouldn’t get me. He’d never get me in the area of my personal relationships. That’s one place where I have no doubt that I’m as strong as you can get.” A few years after that conversation my world broke wide open. A chain of seemingly innocent choices became destructive, and it was my fault. Choice by choice by choice, each easier to make, each becoming gradually darker. And then my world broke—in the very area I had predicted I was safe—and my world had to be rebuilt.
He went on to quote from Oswald Sanders: “An unguarded strength is actually a double weakness.”
All temptations—whether in childhood, youth, or old age, different though they may be—have this in common: Temptation is hard to resist! If you think it isn’t, that is because you have never resisted it! Don’t think about the dessert that you passed up while others dived in as an example of temptation you resisted. You know you don’t like that particular dessert anyway. Try to think of your real besetting temptations. Maybe it’s the sharp-tongued defensive answer whenever you feel criticized. Maybe it’s the anger that brews every time your ex-best friend’s name is mentioned. Maybe it’s the frequent pity parties you throw for “me, myself, and I” over all that you sacrifice for your family each time you fold the laundry, scrub the pots and pans, make the beds! How often we mindlessly follow patterns of thinking that lure until we succumb to temptations like these. A little self-examination is in order to identify our particular weaknesses.
As C.S. Lewis once said, “No man knows how bad he is till he has tried very hard to be good . . . Only those who try to resist temptation know how strong it is. After all, you find out the strength of the German army by fighting against it, not by giving in. You find out the strength of a wind by trying to walk against it, not by lying down.”
Here are three brief, simple truths about temptation.
- I guarantee you are being tempted in ways you may not even realize. Examine your heart daily, and repent quickly!
- Identifying particular areas you’re struggling with is only the first step. Own it. You are responsible; don’t minimize or excuse it. Pray! Prayer is more important than you think. Pray persistently for victory, asking God to help you.
- Recognize ways that you have failed or are failing to nourish your soul in the God who alone satisfies all our deepest longings! You will never change your behavior unless you change what and who you worship!
21 comments
Jeanie | September 25, 2014
You hit it right on. Sometimes I go through it 2-3 times before I acknowledge God is watching and trying to get my attention. That was over 20 years ago and I am still a sinner, but I hear God's voice more clearly and run as fast as I can to the cross. I thank God everyday for the grace and mercy He gives to me. God bless and keep you and yours.
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Judith(Judi) Wilcox | September 25, 2014
Thank you Cathe for your wise insight and being vulnerable enough to share them with me(us). You are definitely on the right track and it is a blessing to gain this perspective. None of us have arrived. Though at times we think or it may look like some people seem to have it all together and it sometimes causes me to inquire what am I doing wrong in this picture. I love the insight and query, yes we often look at the world through 2 year-old eyes. So many choices, so many quandaries, but we are more than conquerors in the Lord. So, I stop and pray and ask God to give me better perspective on these temptation experiences and pray to the Lord and ask Him to strengthen me and He does and I feel better and I go on trying to remember this situation and learn from it before I plunder into deep do do again. God bless you Cathe and your precious thoughts, it's very helpful. Thank you and God bless you and your truthfulness and transparency. Also for your wonderful vision for the Virtue study.
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Kari Hallford | September 25, 2014
Cathe,
There are so many things vying for our attention every day, negative thoughts, chores/work, friends and family, etc. It can become easy to put the bible-reading or prayer time on the back burner and when we finally crawl into bed realize we let our time with the Lord slip by... without that renewal of our mind and spirit, which we all need every day. We wouldn't blow off an appointment, a lunch date or interview, but we blow off the most important part of each day, our time with Jesus. I own this tendency. This is what I want to change in my daily life and I thank you for your blog. He is the best thing that ever happened to me and without Him, my life would have been over years ago. I fail Him, but Jesus has never failed me, despite the storms in my life, the wrecks, the doubts, etc. He has been faithful! He deserves my best, not my best intentions.
Blessings, In Jesus Name,
Kari
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Kurt Seidler | September 25, 2014
Thank you For some great insight into spiritual warfare!
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Carrie | September 25, 2014
Thank you! Well done! So glad to hear exhortation to walk purely with our Lord :)
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Valerie | September 25, 2014
So very true, God is with us through all of our trials. When God is for us, who can be against us!
He has brought me through many mountains and valleys. As long as He is with us we will always be
victorious! I'm thankful for each lesson H has opened my eyes to. He has proven that if you walk with Him, seek Him first above all else. Truly nothing else matters except to give that same love back that He gives us!
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Kay | September 25, 2014
Hit the nail directly ...
Sharp tongued - anger & anger in general ...
Thank You ...
Have A Fantabulous Day ...
You have a wonderful ministry of your own ...
I saw you on TBN the other night ...
Prayers with you & Greg over the loss of Christopher ...
Asking Blessing to both of you also ...
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Rebeca | September 26, 2014
Hi Cathe
I'm a missionary in Romania. All your notes and daily devotions that I received from pastor Greg are treasures for me and my husband. This part of Romania (Drobeta Turnu Severin South West of R where we serve The Lord) is very dry spiritually, so all the wisdom and inspiration from God are very precious for us. May God bless you, pastor Greg and your family.
Love in Christ
Rebeca and John
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Jana | September 26, 2014
AMEN...I love being connected to such wise counsel. Christian women need a woman like you to guide us. Thank you for your insight. Thank you for pouring out your soul to us. It makes me less fearful to reach out to God, others and my Church when I am truly not okay. You are such a Blessing!
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Nanci McGregor | September 26, 2014
You are such a beautiful and talented writer....your God inspired words are so descriptive, it's such a blessing to read them! My heart aches at the thought of yours and Greg's loss and I pray for your family always...
Thank you for being an inspiring vessel for God.
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Terri Green | September 26, 2014
Beautifully put, Cathe! I so appreciate your leadership.
Much love,
Terri
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Debbie Zamora | September 26, 2014
Good Morning, Jesus be with you.
I'm going through something in my life now I'm realizing that only My Jesus can help through. This is very hard for me but My Jesus is with me through this. There is a song by Jeremy Camp. It says, "I will take you back always." and it is one of my favorites. It played this morning. I love My Jesus very much! I'm learning to only lean on My Jesus. He is the only one that understands and I lean on His promises. Sometimes, doing the right thing is a hard thing.
Jesus takes us back. :0)
Thank you.
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Nicole | September 26, 2014
Love how you write. It's nice to know that we all fight the same battles, but also know that God is our leader and following Him we know we will win in the end. God Bless you and your family.
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Debbie Zamora | September 26, 2014
Hi again,
My prayers and my heart are with you. Thank for sending. I appreciate it very much!
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Neila | September 26, 2014
Cathe
You are a true blessing to all as we read your words of wisdom.
I thank God for you!
Love Neila
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Jessie Amaya | September 26, 2014
Thank you sister Cathe
That was helpful to me. As being a baby to my walk with the Lord, words like that are so inspiring to me because I so badly want to be the person God wants me to be. Everyday I look for signs or words of wisdom. I just want to say thank you for your words.
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Sharon | September 26, 2014
Hi Cathe,
Thanks so much. I have been there myself. You are a wonderful writer. Take care and God bless. Prayers for you and Greg.
Sharon
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Betty | September 26, 2014
Thank you, Cathe. God has given you great wisdom and thank you for sharing it.
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Bobi Valli | September 27, 2014
Dear Cathe, I was saved at Harvest Christian Fellowship in 1981. My husband, Marc and I moved to Las Vegas 26 years ago, however, we are still involved in several Harvest goings on. We attend a church here and are involved, however, after all these years we are reading Greg's Daily Devotion, and this year, we are going to attend Harvest America at Calvary Chapel Lone Mountain. I praise The Lord for all you, Greg, and all of your staff. Thank you so much for following God's calling on your lives. Your message today hit my heart very deeply.
God Bless you and yours.
Bobi Valli
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Kelly Jo | September 28, 2014
So true! I love that Oswald Sanders quote. That one is going on the wall. I have always said that as soon as you feel indestructible in an area, God will let you be tested on it. It has happened to me many times and continues to happen.
I'm glad that Greg mentioned your blog on one of his radio broadcasts. What an encouraging place!
All the best to you.
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Rohma | September 29, 2014
Good morning Cathe,
Thank you for this wonderful note and it is so true with my childnren situations or even my own. I just prayed that God may forgive me in all my short-comings. That I maybe able to help my children in ways to help them to continue to seek God's will for them. Not to give up easily in times of temptations. This particular note really made me shed tears . . . Again thank you very much.
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