Spiritual Yawning
Sunday mornings at church were full of familiar routines . . . and homilies quickly forgotten. The Jesus stories in Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John were familiar and my prayers, for the most part, were recited from memory and without much emotion. I would look at the stained glass images and pictures with wide but tearless eyes.
Once in a while, I would gaze at the cross that hung by the door in the bedroom I shared with my two sisters. It was white porcelain with gold swirls and gold edges. But for the most part, it went unnoticed.
When I couldn’t even write my name, I was taught the Apostles’ Creed and recited it in catechism class along with all the other children. “. . . He (Christ) suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried. And the third day He rose again.” This was the cosmic drama that failed to move me. What in heaven’s name could ever be more exciting than this, the greatest story ever told? And yet the whole atmosphere in church, the candles, the incense, all the standing and sitting was nothing more than a yawn.
I am compelled to ask why? The Jesus of Scripture was never a dull man. His first miracle was at a wedding where He turned water into wine. He confronted the status quo and asked questions that couldn’t be sidestepped. He wasn’t impressed by wealth or power. He went to parties and hung out with people of questionable character. Children were drawn to Him, and the “common” people, often the best judges of character, gladly listened to Him.
I have recently concluded almost two years of study in the life of Jesus. There was never a dull moment, right up to the breathless account of the resurrection story. I pray it will not leave us unmoved.
I want to plead with every pastor in every pulpit: preach with the passion this message deserves! Tell me of His love. Tell me of His power. Tell me of His last night in the garden. Tell me how under the bright moon He fell to His knees beneath the olive trees. Tell me His blood and sweat fell in drops upon the dirt. Tell me how He cried and prayed to His Father. Tell me how His friends slept while He was in agony. Tell me again of the day Christ died as a Victim and three days later rose as the Victor.
Tell me again, and again, and again.
I must sing of it, read of it, meditate on it, gaze at paintings of it. We must carve it in the hard wood and stone of our unmoved hearts . . . until the apathy and familiarity and indifference that encases our souls gives way.
Centuries ago the prophet Ezekiel wrote these words of judgment upon a people that had refused to listen, refused to obey.
“You shall drink . . .
a cup that is deep and large . . .
for it contains much . . .
a cup of horror and desolation . . .
you shall drink it and drain it out . . .
and tear at your breasts.”
There was only One who could bear such pain and not be destroyed. The Father refused the prayer of the Eternal Son. The corridors of heaven were silent. His soul was crushed with grief to the point of death.
These words don’t sound like the words of any of the other gods. Call them unbelievable, call them shocking, call them the most devastating words you have ever heard. But whatever you think of those ancient words, if words mean anything at all, you certainly can’t think, like I did once, that they are a yawn.
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Jan Robitaille | December 17, 2013
Cathe, I too can relate to what you have said. I think we were brought up in the same "church". I too for many years sat bored and waited for something powerful to awaken my mind to what was being said in a more powerful way. Emphasizing Jesus' love and devotion to mankind. His dying love for us. His forgiveness of our sins. His acceptance of us once we accept Him as our Savior, and, all He has done for each and everyone of us. I found all this and more when I started going to Calvary Chapel. I now hear and read what Jesus has done for me, even though I was a sinner. I now know He loves me and will not forsake me ever.
Thank you for the reminder, God Bless you Always, Jan
Jennie | December 18, 2013
Me too! In fact, when I have gone to family celebrations at that "church" it breaks my heart to see how spiritually dead most people there are. I want to tear my hair out at the conversations at the receptions later; it is so obvious that, for all the pomp and circumstance and show of the church event, God is not a part their daily lives!
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Prisca | December 17, 2013
My desire is to deepen my relationship with God.
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Janette Boyd | December 17, 2013
This devotion gives me Holy Spirit bumps, because HIS story HIS message IS the "POWER" of God unto salvation to everyone who believes...Romans 1:6
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Willie Jordan | December 17, 2013
Cathe,
How very touching, real, transparent and vulnerable you are in this article! How precious your words in expressing your heart! How deeply they touched mine! Willie
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Juanita Bright | December 17, 2013
Hello. This is my first time reading an article from you. Do you send daily devotions? If so, I would love to receive them.
Thank you
Juanita
Virtue | December 18, 2013
You can sign up for Daily Devotions from Pastor Greg and other emails here.
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Pat Martin | December 17, 2013
Cathe, the Virtue study of Simply Jesus this past year is life-changing. I know my Savior in such a more intimate way than ever before. He has caused me to be changed. We can truly say He is the most exciting thing that has ever happened as we see Him as our Emmanuel....God Himself with us! Thanks for sharing and for leading women in the path of righteousness through our Bible studies. Blessings, Pat
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Janette Boyd | December 17, 2013
This devotion gives me Holy Spirit bumps, because HIS story HIS message IS the “POWER” of God unto salvation to everyone who believes…Romans 1:16
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Heather :) :) :) | December 17, 2013
Thanks for this awesome devotional. I've been dealing with some heartbreak the last couple of days in some different areas of my life and today was the worst. I kept listening to Chris Tomlin's song over and over "My Soul Magnifies the LORD" talking about the birth of Jesus and the whole time I'm thinking that Jesus heart was broken for me....and so He understands the hurt that I"m going through....and then I decided to praise HIM even in my hurt and I'm starting to feel better!!
Love and hugs from the ocean shores of California, Heather ;)
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Tammy | December 17, 2013
Thank you for your passion and reminding us that looking up isn't the answer to going forward.
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Edna Llaurado | December 17, 2013
Very touching, and made me think of my own walk with the Lord and my personal need for revival. The story of Jesus the Christ is what should move us to obedience for He did obey till death. Sad enough that His story is not emphasized enough to move the heart and it should. Your words did. Tell it again. Thank you!
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Guadalupe Perez | December 17, 2013
I'm very grateful that you could share your experience. My God is alive in me. He talks to me. Being with you and Pastor Greg, only confirms that. I feel at home at Harvest. Jesus led me there. Thank you for making Him alive in my soul! :-). He really does love me!
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Tencha | December 17, 2013
Cathe,
I desire to be closer to God. I have read your teachings, listened to your husband preach his teachings, which have helped me so much. I want and yearn to be closer to God. I find myself thanking God and talking to Him, more and more. He gave His life for us, never judges, and is always forgiving.
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Tammy Evans | December 17, 2013
This study has brought so much more life to His story for me. I can't even put it into words how moved I am now when I hear it. I could never hear it enough! Thank you for putting it into words for me.
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Maryeln | December 17, 2013
I am soo very happy God introduced you and Pastor Greg to me. It is comforting just knowing I am not alone in my ups and downs with my walk with Jesus. It has taken many years to understand the difference between feeling and knowing Jesus Christ. I truly love the way your husband shares the Word. May God bless you and your ministry. Smiles n Blessings. Maryeln
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Dora P. Lopez | December 17, 2013
There is no doubt in my heart that God has reminded me where he took me from, and made it possible for me to have an encounter with His Son Jesus Christ! Your message brought me so much desire to continue my walk with Jesus, am looking forward to study the Word for another two years and just saturate myself in His love for me, and know that He will never forsake me nor leave me! May God bless both you and Pastor Greg.
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Roberta Moore | December 18, 2013
Cathe,
PRAISE GOD We know Him!! Thank you Jesus for what you did for me!!
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Teresa Dirk | December 18, 2013
Cathe, I like you was brought up in the same church setting. I am thankful to my Mother for at least bringing me up to know there was a God and Jesus did die for our sins and rose again. Like you it didn't ever bring me to my knees, not spiritually or otherwise. I had heard this all my life and I just didn't get it. I went through the motions of being a "good person" who attended church on Sundays and Catechism on Wednesday nights, made my first holy communion and other than being able to receive the host, I didn't get it. It wasn't till I began dating my now husband who asked me why all the sitting and standing and sad faces in church, that I began to pay closer attention to what I wasn't getting, and I realized I wanted to be filled, not continue to be an empty vessel, but one who ran after the word of God. This began my seeking to find a place to worship. Thank God for sending someone into my life that brought me to eternal life in Christ Jesus. You and your husband are a blessing.
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Maria McClanahan | December 18, 2013
Thank you for sharing the love of Jesus as always. I look forward to the continued teaching of the Word.
Thank you again and again. Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say rejoice!
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Carol | December 18, 2013
Thank you for deeply meaningful articles! I'm sorry, though, that you sat bored in that "church" and in catechism. As a volunteer catechism teacher who sacrificed much for 10 years, I tried very hard not to be boring. I always taught my students that most important was their personal relationship with Christ. My own adult children and I do presently attend "those churches," but we also visit many others. We have our favorite Christian pastors that we watch daily on the Christian channels, we listen daily to KKLA, and we're fed daily by Pastor Laurie's devotional. We've felt so connected that we attended Frank Pastore's service. We attend the Fish Fest, Harvest Crusade, and recently the Hillsong Conference. So, I don't necessarily think that it's that "church" that doesn't bring Christ to people, it's the people who have to be in the spirit wherever they attend service. "Church" isn't just what you receive at service once a week; it's what you do the other six days.
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Mary | December 18, 2013
Thank you for this, I too grew up in the same church. However, I still feel that while there are many people there going through the motions, there are also people there that are truly saved and have a relationship with our Lord. I get tired of people abandoning the people who are going through the motions, as they have the right foundation, they just need good spiritual leading, which many churches DO have. I feel that I have been planted in my church to remain and bring others to have a true heart relationship with God through Jesus and the Holy Spirit.
God Bless you and Greg for your ministry, I absolutely love it and cannot get enough of the teachings!
Merry Christmas.
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Kristen | December 18, 2013
As someone who is both Catholic and enjoys Harvest, this particular Virtue hurts me. I know that many people have been "lost" in the Catholic church, and sure, there are plenty of priests who just"go through the motions" without any real sense of emotion or urgency. How they can do that, knowing that they are acting as the vessels of Christ, is beyond me. But to be fair, I have seen many pastors, preachers, and Christians of every walk just "go through the motions." If you seek explanation, if you truly pray and open your heart, the beauty of what happens in every mass will never be lost on you. There is a reason for everything that happens in mass. I taught catechism for many years and saw the joy and wonder and understanding on my kid's faces during mass. I am sorry that so many people have had similar experiences to Cathe's, but I don't understand why so many want to speak negatively of the Catholic church as a whole. We're all followers of Christ, and I don't see how speaking ill helps anyone.
Tammie | January 6, 2014
As someone who was raised in a Catholic family & am born again through the saving blood of the Lord Jesus Christ, I need to let you know that Jesus is sacrificed at each mass. In Hebrews, we are told in chapter 10, verse 12; but He, having offered one sacrifice for sins for all time, SAT DOWN AT THE RIGHT HAND OF God. Verse 14; For by one offering. He has perfected for all time those who are sanctified. Also, Romans, chapter 3 verse 23; for ALL have sinned & fall short of the glory of God. This includes Mary who was a bond servant of Jesus, & proclaimed Him to be her savior in Luke 1 verse 37. In His first coming Christ dealt with sin once for all, in His second coming He will take redeemed sinners to Himself in the consummation of their salvation.
I can truly say that I thought I could see, but I was blind. Look for a bible based chapel & look to your bible to live by the word of God, Who is Jesus!
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Gloria | December 18, 2013
Cathe, I am enjoying reading your personal memories!...I don't want to sound selfish, but my entire family and I really need industrial strength Prayer!!!! I do not want pity, but God's hand on our logically hopeless, but not Spiritually hopeless circumstances!!! Thank you! God Bless All. Love Gloria
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Karen Biel | December 19, 2013
Cathe,
This was great. It is something that we should think about daily and not just at Christmas time.
May you, Greg and your family have a Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year!
God bless you all!
Karen
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Cristina | December 19, 2013
Dear Cathe please pray for me and give me some advice on how to manage my life. I'm a single mom with four kids. I have been through so much. It's through the hand of God that I'm here, praise God. I lost my car for more than a year ago. I'm longing for a Godly husband, a man of God. I don't have a family. I'm all alone in the United States. I consider my self an orphan. I'm very discouraged and disappointed. Not being able to provide for my kids makes me feel very bad to a point were I have lost my confidence. I need your advice on how to cope with life. Thanks for the devotion from pastor Greg and yours. May God bless your ministry richly. Hope to hear from you soon. With lots of love your friend Cristina.
Gloria | December 21, 2013
Christina, Please do not be discouraged. God has a beautiful plan for you and your family!! Try to get into a reputable Church in your community (be very careful.) I will keep praying for you and your family!! Love in Christ!! Gloria
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Leslie | December 19, 2013
Very well written, dynamic and heartfelt. Eloquently put. Thank you and God bless you! Leslie
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Debbie | December 20, 2013
Good Morning,
I Love My Jesus very much! I thank Him for is love and long suffering for me. I was raised in a Catholic home and followed what was taught. I'm so glad I know the TRUTH now. it's MY JESUS! I gave my life to Jesus and I attend Calvary. I have been taught the truth about my Jesus. He is with me and for me and takes care of me. I remember when I gave my life to My Jesus and my two sons and daughter where with me. We all gave our life to Jesus that night. I give my Life everyday to My Jesus. I love Him and want to be with Him in Heaven for all eternity. I want to live in Heaven with My Jesus forever! Jesus is my Life!
I have six grandchildren. Three have given their lives to My Jesus and one was dedicated. Tony is 15, Kyle is 7 and Austin is 5. I pray Ms Maykala 8 and Ms Lorena 5 and Joaquin 4 give there lives to My Jesus! I pray my sons Larry and Gabe and daughter Patricia return back to Jesus today.
Merry Christmas! God's Love and Peace!
Thank you! :0)
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Sherylen | December 27, 2013
Cathe, I read this while we were in Hawaii over Thanksgiving and I never wrote to say how moving and meaningful it was to me...it touched me so deeply because so often I want to just cry out "Tell it with passion...don't you understand how incredible this is? How unbelievable this gift is?" oh, the world yawns while the greatest gift ever given lies there unopened...I pray that pastors and churches and Christians everywhere share the story of Jesus and his power and magnificence with the whole world that they might awaken and not yawn!! Thank you sweet friend for your tender heart and expressing these truths...
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